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“The Couch” -- ALANIS MORISSETTE
"The Couch"
ALANIS MORISSETTE
You hadn't seen your father in such a long time he died in the arms of
his lover how dare he your mother never left the house she never married anyone
else you took it upon yourself to console her you reminded her so much of your
father so you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive and why
you can't trust anyone but us but then how can I begin to forgive her so many
years under bridges with dirty water she was foolish and selfish and cowardly
if you ask me I don't know where to being in all of my 50 odd years I have been
silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring who are you younger
generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems not many examples of
fruits of this type of excruciating labour how can you just throw words around
like grieve and heal and mourn I feel find we may not have been born as awake
as you were It was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both
ways we went from school to a job to a wife instant parenthood I walked into
his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch he was sitting down across
from me he was writing down his hypothesis I don't know I've got a loving
supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get you say his
interjecting was him just calling me on my shit? just the other day my sweet
daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye I
remember how they would creak loudly she was only responsive with a drink he
was only responsive by photo I was only trying to be the best big brother I
could I've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
sometimes indignant sometimes raw can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour
sometimes it feels like highway robbery and sometimes it's peanuts I wish it
could last a couple more hours so here we both are battling similar demons (not
coincidentally) you see in getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually
you're not relinquishing your majestry you are wise you are warm you are
courageous you are big and I love you more now than I ever have in my whole
life
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